why am i so tired?

i got a 5 days off (provided they dont call mi to go work)
*cross my fingers*

i hoping to getaway from everything ?

my head is spinning...
headache...

feels that i got too much things to tink and worry abt..

hoping to go to taiwan for a break..
but unable to travel...
leave cancelled!

waiting for new leave to be approved..

perhaps things in life of what i wan, doesnt meet what i expected...
i shld just be contented and live more simpler

be back to whom i used to be..
without tinking too much of how others might tink of feel?

its too much of alot evils and goodness fighting
that is creating the tired me
its makes life difficult to live on

others seems to be using mind fighting each other (gou xin dou jiao)
i need to defend myself..
and i learnt that skills too

ended up not being a simple me anymore

i am not kind hearted, not simple,
i am devil!

i feel dat i am bad!
argh..

what can i rantings abt...
its all the difficulties i am facing


its just a pessimistic monster that is bugging me
get away from mi pls?