been thru a hectic war at work today

really a WAR

a WAR with time

a WAR with colleagues over the phone usuge , over appt dates not given on time, etc

a WAR with drs over their decision (change and change over again) undecisive over the dates for appts,

a WAR with myself unable to coordinate my brain and actions ...

really unable to know what i am planning..
and i end up dunno , confused, and
have to keep telling myslf i can do a good job..i can do it..others dont help, u help urself!...

i keep trying to prevent my tears from dropping at work..
cos i am over stress over the distractions and and different issues i had to settle ,
handling with the discharges is the most difficult cos that particular team of drs are very strict and always complain that we nv do this or that. end up kana scolded by them..so i tried to confirm with the MO to the REG i almost wan to confirm with the CONSULTANT!
cos its difficult to arrange what they wan (cos dunno what they have in plan in their mind)..is very confusing too... cos they dun plan like what we have in mind so muz convey our plan in mind across to them..and seek their permission..

ARGHH!!

work until almost 5pm until a leftthe ward to get hm...i am already on the verge of breaking down already..

imagine every day i am gearing up myself to fight the war!
and how tiring it is to face all this everyday..perhaps tmr will be facing chemo war!
putting chemo..arghhh

i am tired!

i am really very and wanted all this to end asap!
i wanna slp in peace too..cos my mind is all filled up with work and even dream of it at times

and i didnt even eat for the past few days during breaktime so i ate abt 1 meal per day only?
ya...didnt go toilet the whole shift (8hrs),
didnt drink a sip of water for the whole 8 hrs?


I HAD IT ENOUGH!!