Saturday, October 28, 2006


my exam day!

i still having the headache on & off...still on the medication...
cant take coffee, tea, coke, pepsi, chocolate....everything with caffeine i cant take..
craving for chocolates...
anyone wanna treat me? lolx

today is my first day of exams...having to study all 3 books for dis one module is to study like mad..and rush like bullet train..and really nothing much enter into my tiny brain...
really had a hard time trying to focus with my headache on and off...
but today paper is finally over yeahoo!!
though its kinda difficult in the mcqs but glad its over..
wah..i even forgot to eat for lunch b4 going for the exam
during the exam the stomach keep grumbling like as if it is talking to me...
just drink water and drink..to prevent hungry...no logic hor...onli make u go toilet more onli..plus its raining heavily!! and the exam hall is super cold and freezing? lol...lucky for me i brought in my jacket...
i manage to to finish my paper just in time...
love to add rubbish nonsense writing in my paper though i dunno how to ans...
hoping to get 1 or 2 marks or some marks at least...
diaox...

have to go on to study for another paper..which is going to be on tues morning....

oh ya gotta wish alot pple
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
pple on the list are
1..Aloysius 20th oct
2..My younger sister 21st oct
3..My Darling Gdine 21st oct
4..My mommy 23rd oct
5..elder sister Friend Weihong (my friend also la) 24th oct
6..My good friend Derrick aka OINK OINk haha *pig * 26th oct
7..My you-tiao Dolores 27th oct
8..My Sec1-2 Best friend Tessa 28th oct
9..My BB friend cum Sec sch classmate for 4yrs John 28th oct
10..Melissa ho ithink is 30th oct
11..my Sec1-2 FAv maths teacher Mrs Chia 30th oct..

so many pple birthays!
wish all of ya...hmmm...i tink most of them got receive the msg i send to them ba
anyways i just good at remembering pple's birthday ! and i love it!

my mood is getting up and downs all the time
sometimes i just dunno what i tinking and what i trying to do and sometimes i just become out of time doing things just beyong control..
crying shouting screaming hitting things alot
and i end up hurting myself my hands
with scratches and marks ..just painful hands and knuckles and headpain...

thinking how to lead a fuilfilling life ? a meaningful one...
study hard to be a great nurse?
to score a straight As?
to keep myself healthy?
to keep him in my heart?
to be happy ?

i also wish to be happy like everyone else..
but yet cant get over it yet..
jealousy just set in very fast and
get hold of my mind and soul and
just make me do things i dont want to ..
and end up making alot of trouble for u

making u getting frustrated at me and cant bear with me anymore (which made me feel even more hurts)
i always throw temper...causing u to find it unbearable...and u irritated by it and most prob dun wanna see me anymore...

i really trying very hard to control myself ...and it my jealousy that get away with it...
making myself a irritable person...
i am very sorry....
no amount of sorry can take away the pain and misery i cast it unto u ...

i am very sorry...
and still wishing i am the old me dat is many yrs ago, not so unbearable...
and the cheerful me and the fun loving,sweet gentle person that u see in me.. a joker that can cheer u up...
as ur one and onli kaixin guo...

treat you like a jewel that is precious and rare
hoping u does the same to me with gentlness and care
not wanting any chances to break it into million pieces
which will be difficult to be mend again...

*ilu...my dear...



































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