Tuesday, August 22, 2006


23rd august 2006

been thru lotsa recently
been ups and downs
feeling comforted now...
am i happy now?
what does it mean to say i am happy?
mood swings high up and low...dunno what i actually wants
dun ask for long term commitment now..cos it will nv be true
i just ask to be happy day by day..
if it really happens and i am not happy again...
mayb i leave u for the time being or even forever
and get over it? is it good for me?
no one noes what is ahead of us in the near future?
i may become a GREAT MISSY ? mayb not so soon















just wanna see the smile on ur face,
it just can be so of a feel in my heart
mayb u doesnt noe it, it does like a miracle effect on me

its not that i hate her..i tot i will hate her..but its not.. i nv..
just that when u reveal and tell me how u actually feel and what u intend to do..
i feel dat i shouldnt be so selfish and kept u inside and within me.
no matter whether have we broken.
accepted it ..glad no hiding, no avoidance,
still share ours feeling and tots like b4,
share the things we bought them when we are together..
and go out like b4

i did haf the tots to keep u unless u no more feelings for me?
am i very selfish to think for myself and not urs?
i learnt and think..dats y i accepted it so.

i just dunno what i wanna now...i am very mixed feelings..
when first w/o u , i feel so empty and lifeless and just unable to do anything
looking for things/ friends and things just to keep myself occpuied..
urge to call u and msg u , but i tried to keep it ..nv nv succeed
when in near future, i had to go...i will keep within my heart..
trying my best not wanting u to worry abt me anymore..

when u tell me to wait.i will.. i guess
tell me to forget u .. tears just rushed out,
and to realise u dun want me to forget u..i feel comforted
if means that to part one day...i will haf u on my mind? i dunno..
i had a very heavy heart..



u presented a present b4 me, u said i will be very happy and nv thought of it ever (provided i still there)
i wish i am there till the day to see what it is...

& I hijacked a rainbow @ 12:39 PM